Poetry / Dark Poetry

I escaped pergatory I walked throw the vally of the dead crossed the river sticks  and crowded throw the deep dark pitts of hell  just to see the other side of hell were the living dead rezid we’re pashone of heart means nothing to the heartless zombie’s of hell that destroy all things in their wake futal time wasted to save anything for this is hell and all things here die !!!    

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America’s New military division

I read about this breaking news last night on the net as I was gone throw a bounce of other news articles on Opera  ( a wed browser ) .  

“Hold on to your hats people your gonna love this one.” 😂  😝

Are infemise grand leader has dicided we needed a new military division for the twenty first centre !!!     

“” Introducing are new division  “” Space Command  “” !!!     A special alete fighting force for the new battleground, A alete group of specially trained soldiers to diffend america !!!   

Because as we all know the  ” Marshan’s from Uranyis ” are attacking and we need the  “” Space Command “”  to diffend america from Uranyis “”!!!    

Better yet why don’t we seened the genuice behind this mind blowing over extravagant plan to Uranyis in his own private space rocket along with piss head and any other monkey that supports this extravagant waste of money that is beyond are current technology to even hafe assly pull off !!!   

And for God’s sake’s couldn’t he have comeup with a better name then  ” Space Command “, I think someone has been watching too much ” Buck Roger’s ” lately !!!   😝 😂 🤣    

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Coalition for the homeless of central Florida / Their blog page

http://centralfloridahomeless.org/blog/

This is a nice blog page full of short stories of the people that have gone throw the program and gotten helped and it’s also about some of the programs and events they have there.   

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My life up tell now.

This is a basic summary of my life up till now, I don’t intend to go into detail about everything just trying to cover the basics of it all  for those who are interested in knowing more about me.  

I was born in a military hospital premature with 4’th stage namonya I died 3 times in the first 8’hrs and had a number of problems as a result of being a preme but my body managed to pull it together. I don’t have a clear memory of my childhood do to suppressed memories but here is what I do remember. My father was an abusive drunk, depending on his mood when he came home from work you would get yelled at or get your ass kicked because he was in a bad mood and I don’t think it helped anything that I was a girly boy as they us to say. That was also the problem I had with my mother, she seen me as a gay guy for all my questions and the way I acted and when I got chot wearing girls clothes by my mother I got my ass beat for it and told how sick and discusting it was too do that. Things weren’t much better when I started school as well, I was the girly boy that got beat up by the boys and I was the problem child to the teachers for being a girly boy and because of my learning problems and so I got my ass beat by the principal in elementary school for being a problem child all the time. ( I think you can see the pattern of abuse here, This kind of abuse was tipical in the 70’s ) During this time period I was diagnosed with severe Dislexya and a hearing problem that’s why I couldn’t read or write like other kids my age, as well as being diagnosed with scolyowses. So my early childhood wasn’t much fun, physical therapy 3 times a week, being forced to read for hours every night, gone to doctors every other day for my hearing and my eyes and phycologist to find out what was wrong with me.  By the time I got into middle School things weren’t much better I was still getting into fights for being a girly boy and getting abused physically and mentally by my father but things had changed with my mother as I had suppressed my memories and was trying to live as the kind of person she wanted me to be.  By the time I get into high school I wasn’t getting into many fights because I had astabllished I was qwit crazy and out for blood if you messed with me, as well I had put a end to my father’s physical abuse by hitting him with a shovel and nocking him out but that didn’t stop the verbal abuse.  The first legal job I had the woman was a mouthy verbally abusive bitch and that set the pressedent for most of the jobs I’ve had in my life verbally abusive ass holes. After high school I relinted to my mother’s and brothers nagging to go to college ( boy was that a mees ) I was verbally abused and harassed tell I blew my top resulting in property damages of all kinds but no actual fist fights. College for me was nothing but a wast of time it’s never helped me get a job.  After college I went from job after job after job ( I was used as temporary help then fired ) so I got tired of that and moved to Florida to find work. But ended up rate back at working construction, 3/4 of my money went to helping out a family member who screwed me over in the end. That was about the time my depression started to kick in and I said the hell with it all and went to work for a guy under the table and living with them,  things were alright for a while but slowly went down hill as I did more and more of the work for lease and lease money and being verbally abused more and more, but I really don’t care as my depression became full blown all I cared about was getting drunk at night and diying, after ten years he wasn’t paying me anything and was bitching about anything he did have to buy and saying all the time I should be paying him for taking care of me when I was the only one doing all the work for his business and his verbal abuse was border line on physical abuse but he wasn’t brave enough to cross that line with me as I told him I would kill him if he put his hands on me, so one night after getting into a argument with him I left and went to work for another verbally abusive ass holes, more of the same shit for another 14+years. I was nearly 6 years ago now that I had my awakening, I’ve worked hard at trying to fix my life the last step was leaving that hell hole witch I did and that is why I’m homeless now but it’s better than putting up with a abusive ass hole and working my ass off for very little money.  

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Dear Mr President and cohorts

Dear Mr President and cohorts,

  I know you’re feeling pretty good about your selves right now for all the havec y’all have coused too the LGBT+ community !!!   Y’all apparently don’t understand the basic concept of the fundamentals of America, those three little word’s that your ignorant of   ” Freedom for All ” !!!  It’s a simple basic little constructed that is apparently to complecated for y’all to figure out so let me explain it to y’all  ” Freedom for All ” mean’s the right for all people to live free of persocution of discrimination based on who or what they are or and what they believe in to have equal rights the same as every other person !!!   Y’all may have set us back but you have not stopped us from fighting for those three little word’s, we will not stop tell we have achieved  ” Freedom for All ” people because we are the humaniitaryans of the world that except’s everyone as they are and believe everyone should be free to live their lives as they see fit to do so !!!   We have always been and shall ever be tell the end of time but your time is short and one day y’all will be gone and another shall step forward to abolish your unconstitutional inhumane law’s !!!   

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Are lose of Freedom and Protection

Here in the US many people have now Lost Freedom and Protection from discrimination thanks to the federal government, their religious freedom bill witch is set to take affect this week gives people the right to discriminate against people based on their sexual identity, marital status and gender identity and I’m sure it can be used for a lot more than that, it assentualy means if someone doesn’t like the way you look or what you’re talking about they can discriminate against you, the implications this bill has opened up is stagering to the american people !!! If you think you’re safe because your not LGBT+ think again, this is just part of what they have planned to strip americans of their freedoms and put the right-wing Christine’s in power over everyone, it’s gonna be their way and their ideology that runs this country and if you don’t like it to bad !!!  😠 😠 

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Poetry / The child within

The child within 

Doesn’t understand fear

Doesn’t understand hate 

Doesn’t understand greed 

Doesn’t understand bigetry 

Doesn’t understand resentment 

The child within talk’s to death 

The child within askes is it time yet

The child within askes can’t I go home

The child within askes how much more do I have to do for the world 

The child within only seks love and acceptance   

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Two blog’s to check out

These are two blog’s I ran across that I think are worth checking out.

The first one is ” https;//jamesedgarskye.com/ ” The Bipolar Writer, it’s a blog based on Mental illnic with many guests writers on the site writing about their experience with mental illnic. It’s a great blog.

  The second one is this  ”  https;//aguycalledbloke.blog/ ”  A guy called bloke and K9 Doodlepip, Rory’s blog is a colosh of many different post/sires on one blog you need to check it out to see what I mean, it’s a great blog. 

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Bloody Crock’s

Public Storage their bloody Crock’s !!! 

I cleaned out my public storage locker the other day because I couldn’t afford to pay it anymore, they told me last week that if I have everything cleaned out of there by the 5’th I wouldn’t ow them anything, so today I got the last of my things out of there and stopped in the office on my way out to tell them my locker was empty so not to get charged for a nother months rent that I can’t pay !!!

I was informed I ow them this months rent anyway because the bill was due on the 1st and she said I couldn’t get a locker again tell it’s paid, I got a email from them saying I have 10 days to pay them $50  or face paying more charges !!!

Well the crocked bastards are just gonna have to sue me because I can’t pay them !!! 

A locker that was $30 they hicked up to $60 with their additional charges that they don’t tell you about tell you get the locker, a insurance policy you have to buy starting at $11 for their chepes and then a $20 service charge and they charge you $12 for a lock.

Dame I’m agrovated now !!! 😠 

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Finding self love

Finding self love or learning to love your self for who you are is one of the hardest things to do and it’s even harder if you have a mental illnic that wispers in your ear all the time telling you that your no good or if you had a bad child hood. 

Having it ingraned in your mind that your no good makes it very hard to believe that you really are good and deserving  of love.

I should know I’ve been there and i still have to fight with those bad thoughts from depression.

I had to learn the past is the past and theirs nothing you can do to change that so there is no need to hold on to those thoughts, forgive and let go.

I had to learn that even though I’m very different from most people their are people out there that will respect and love me for the person I am as I am.

I had to learn to respect my self for what I am and that I have self worth.

With this lessons learned I was able to start loving my self for the person I am and have honer and respect for my self.

It doesn’t matter what other people think of me because I know who I am and I love my self for who I am, I found my self love and no one can take that away from me !!! 

I have written out this basic model for finding your self love in hopes it can help someone else, this is the model I used to find my self love.

No it will not fix all your problem’s but it will make you happier in your life and give you a different perspective on life. 

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