Today marks the two year anniversary of my blog ( and I didn’t even know it 😁 ) on W.P..
A big thank you to all of you that have been following my blog. 😀
I’ve meet some lovely people on W.P. over the past two years and made some nice friendships as well. ❤️
Hopefully I’ll be around for many more years to come.
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Hellow friends and followers,
I know it’s been a while sorry for gust dropping off the face of the planet like that so let me fill you in a bit.
Christmas and New years is a difficulty time for me I tend to retreat from people around that time for a while then pop back up again but I got bissy with things I had to do, I got a new tent for witch I worked hard making a platform for so to have a nice place to set my new tent up on, witch isn’t easy with one bum arm and a bad back but I got it done. Shortly after finding out my family was moving out of state so I had to move my stuff that I had left to my tent witch gust wor me out even more phisicly and mentally. After they had left I crashed hard into a manic state ( depression) gone right off the edge almost into suicide again but not quite, I’ve spent the last couple of months trying to pull myself back out of that manic state of mind and really get back to doing something.
On the bright side of things that time off of doing nothing has allowed my arm to heal back up so it’s not hurting like hell 24/7 anymore tell I do something to nock it out of wack again.
I’ll be trying to get back on WP more often now, I’m sorry to everyone who’s comments I haven’t answered too I’ll be trying to get back on top of that again as well.
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Sorry everyone but this will probably be my last post for a while ( see my last post for the details ).
Now I’m just gonna ramble on about my life abit.
I’ve never had a easy life that’s for sure as a child I had a rare growth disorder were my bone structure grow twice as fast as the rest of my body causing severe pain in my muscles as they were stretched to their bracking point everyday and to add to that I was diagnosed with scolyowses so I had to go to physical therapy 3 days a week and I was diagnosed with cronic degradation of the ear drums and I had a birth defect in my reproductive organs, so my childhood was mostly spent in pain and getting shofold around from doctor to doctor being pocked and prodded and in and out of the hospital for ear surgery and stiches for severe cuts ( cosd by many different things ) and my teenage years into adolthood was about the same in and out of the hospital for something or another, I brock my tail bone in my early twenties and some how herniated 3 discs in my lower back around the same time but I don’t slow down I went full tilt into reclise abandonement of my body, now at 44 year’s old I have a bulging disc in the middle of my back, my right shoulder is messed up, I have a couple of ribs on the left side messed up, my right hip is messed up, my right knee is messed up and I have a nurological problem with my right leg making it hard to walk right, I’m half def, my eyes are gone bad and I have swelling in my lower legs making it hard to crotch-down, so I’m no stranger to physical pain but it’s to much to beable to work throw any more doing physical labor, now add on top of that my depression and anxiety and you have one “F”ed up life.
Everywhere I go to try and get help I get the same basic reaction of ” OMG your disabled “sorry we can’t help you”, iv been doing this for years now gone around and around with the brocken system we have if you’re disabled and poor there’s no help for you your on your own and the same goes for if you’re homeless around here and the city has made sure to make it as hard as possible on you to just survive as they don’t want homeless people around.
I’m not trying to wine and complain here but make a point that this is my “F”ed up life and this is what I have to deal with, I don’t blame anyone for it I’m the one that wasted my 20’s and 30’s in suicidal depression and anxiety working under the table for a couple of chep ass’s and getting nowere in life. I’ve spent the last 5 year’s trying to fix my brocken life and get past my depression and anxiety witch I thought I had for the most part but it’s pulling me back down again with all that is going on now in my life.
If you’ve read throw all this thank you for your time.
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I would like to thank you all for your likes and kind ward’s 😍. 💗
It’s really helped me keep my spirits up throw this mess that I’m gone throw right now. 😘 😀 💗 ✌
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All i can say is WOW !!!
On Feb 23 i had the most veiws ever and the most likes ever so far, it’s amazing to me because i normaly only got 2 or 3 veiws a day on my blog so to get 17 people in one day looking at it just blows my mind and to get 14 likes in one day that really just blows me away.
Hopefully my blog will help spread knolage about real trans people and the LGBT+ community and what are lives are really like.
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