A long time and many changes

It’s been a long time sense my last post because after the last hurricane that hit FL i’v been very busy. I went from working 8hrs to 9hrs a day to 18 – 19hrs a day taking care of the after-math of destruction left be-hind for a couple of people that could care less about me, if they know the real me it would have been very bad for me because they weren’t good people at all, all that i did for them all they could do was find foult with me and what i did. So after years of putting up with there crap i left and not at a good time of the year to be looking for a new job especially when your disabled. I moved in with family that said i could stay for a little while but that time is about over and with little money and no job stole it looks like i will be living on the streets soon but it’s stile better then where i was before.

I’v had a lot of time to think and reflexed on things, my two decades of suicidal depression thought me a lot of things i never could see tell after my awakening, i thought i was looking for something that i couldn’t find the door way to but in actuality the door was right in front of me i just had to learn how to open it. The world as a knew it is now a vastly different place now that i have opened-up my mind, heart and soul, I can see a world full of wonder, amazement and beauty that most will never see.                                                                                                                                                                                                                            There’s no dowt the world is a cruel, uncaring place that will step on you every chance it gets but that doesn’t mean we have to let it run us down and live are lives in misery. As some one that has gone throw two decades of suicidal depression i learned that self love was the road for me to self happiness thow it’s been a long hard road getting there for the most part im content in life now.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              Come what may, poverty, homelessness, death, I do not blame the world for this things any more because it’s the inescapable causality of life for someone like me.                                                                                                                                                                                                            BY FOR NOW Continue reading “A long time and many changes”


ACLU Sues president trump over Transgender military ban

Aug. 28,2017

This is a newly filed lawsuit over the trans ban for military personel in the Navy,Army,Air Force and Marines on behalf of Petty Officer First Class Brock Stone.  

The American Civil Liberties Union has filed a lawsuit challenging President Donald Trump’s ban on transgender individuals joining the military.

via ACLU sues President Trump over transgender military ban — WSPA.com


My Paste

At a young age i know i was not right i wanted girls things, girls clothing and a girls body but this was not to be, like so many others growing up in the early 70’s my mother would not stand for it as she seen it as being gay and she had no room in her religious belife for a gay son or trans daughter, she would get kwit mad when i would ask those questions about my gender telling me god doesn’t make mistakes i was born a boy and a boy i will be, well around age 10 that all came to a head when my mother had finally had a nuff of it all and threatend to kill me if i didn’t nock it off. So i suppressed my memorys inorder to survive and let her have what she wanted.

Skiping ahead 30 years!!!

I was 39 years old suverly depressed and suicidal i had follen over the edge of sanity i didn’t know what was real or a dream anymore. Then one afternoon in September I was reading a New York Times article about transgender kids when it all kliked, my suppressed memorys all came back hiting me in a tidal wave of emotions and i knew then who and what i really was, my Awakening had begun. It’s taken nearly 4 years for me to work throw everything and make peace with my self, yes i still have bad day’s dealing with what i am but it’s nothing like the hell i us to go throw.

I’m a proud trans lady now and one day I will be that lady on the out side that i am on the inside!!!



About Me


Im Dawn a 43 year old trans lady living in the U.S. i have yet to start my transitioning but hopfully it will be soon. I love to help people i think it’s my second calling. Iv only rediscovered my self 4 years ago after my awakening. I write trans oriented poetry and im working on writting two different transgender books that a hope to get published one day. I run a small LGBT website with my friend who own’s the site. I have dislycsia so my spelling is off at times so gust bear with me.

Like most transgender people i have depression and i have attempted suicide on more then one ocashon but im doing much better now, iv learned to love my self for who and what i am, i know im not alone in this world and there are people out there that love me for gust who i really am.