My Paste

At a young age i know i was not right i wanted girls things, girls clothing and a girls body but this was not to be, like so many others growing up in the early 70’s my mother would not stand for it as she seen it as being gay and she had no room in her religious belife for a gay son or trans daughter, she would get kwit mad when i would ask those questions about my gender telling me god doesn’t make mistakes i was born a boy and a boy i will be, well around age 10 that all came to a head when my mother had finally had a nuff of it all and threatend to kill me if i didn’t nock it off. So i suppressed my memorys inorder to survive and let her have what she wanted.

Skiping ahead 30 years!!!

I was 39 years old suverly depressed and suicidal i had follen over the edge of sanity i didn’t know what was real or a dream anymore. Then one afternoon in September I was reading a New York Times article about transgender kids when it all kliked, my suppressed memorys all came back hiting me in a tidal wave of emotions and i knew then who and what i really was, my Awakening had begun. It’s taken nearly 4 years for me to work throw everything and make peace with my self, yes i still have bad day’s dealing with what i am but it’s nothing like the hell i us to go throw.

I’m a proud trans lady now and one day I will be that lady on the out side that i am on the inside!!!



About Me


Im Dawn a 43 year old trans lady living in the U.S. i have yet to start my transitioning but hopfully it will be soon. I love to help people i think it’s my second calling. Iv only rediscovered my self 4 years ago after my awakening. I write trans oriented poetry and im working on writting two different transgender books that a hope to get published one day. I run a small LGBT website with my friend who own’s the site. I have dislycsia so my spelling is off at times so gust bear with me.

Like most transgender people i have depression and i have attempted suicide on more then one ocashon but im doing much better now, iv learned to love my self for who and what i am, i know im not alone in this world and there are people out there that love me for gust who i really am.