Screwed again

Well the other day the owner of the store were I was charging my phone and power pack told me I wasn’t allowed to hang out there any more and do that.

So now I have no way to charge my phone and power pack except by the built-in Soler panel on the power pack witch is very slow taking days to charge up anuf to charge my phone and on top of that I lost the only way I’ve been getting money with out panhandling and worrying about getting arrested. 

So I’m just  “F”ed again !!! 

So now I have to go back to leaving my phone off most of the time again witch just screws everything up again !!! 

God I hate my life !!! 

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38 thoughts on “Screwed again”

  1. Do not hate ur life. It is beautiful, Dont be broken because of people, they are only just robots with society feeded rules…

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  2. Dawn, have you had a go fund me before? There must be a way for us, your allies, to help.

    I’m sorry for my ignorance, but is there hiring help for trans people?

    Don’t give up. Your life is just rough right now. It can get better.

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    1. No I’ve never had anything like that before and don’t know how any of that works, not around here my biggest problem is being disabled and not knowing how to do anything that doesn’t require physically laber. ❤️✌️

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      1. No I can’t even find a place to help me out with that or getting the medical paper work for it, I just get the run-around from one place to another. ❤️✌️

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      2. Dawn, there is paperwork that needs to be done and you can visit the same office again and request them all the copies of the paperwork including the denial. Afterwards, you can head to the nearest library or to any of your friend where you use a computer to write your blog and request them to upload it all on your own blog. If you wish, you can also mark that particular post as “private” and share it with only those who can actually help you. And I volunteer myself to help you go through all that paperwork. My contact information is aatayyab@yahoo.com and my cell is 407-434-1786.

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      3. I think you said somewhere on your blog that you applied for disability but got rejected. I was referring to that paperwork.

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      4. I went to apply for disability and was given the run-around and just given panflits on it that basically give every reason why you will be denied disability and I found out I need medical paper work witch I don’t have and haven’t been able to find any place to help me out with that.
        Sorry for the mix-up Amir. ❤️✌️

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      5. Do you still have copies of that paperwork with you? And could you pls. E-mail me all of that by scanning it from any nearby library or from your friend’s?

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      6. I got no paperwork they flat out told me they couldn’t see me for weeks with out an appointment and after reading their panflits I just gave up trying to even talk to them. ❤️✌️

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  3. Perhaps there are other places that will help you in the area… perhaps there are social groups in your area that can help… don’t give up!… 🙂

    “No road is too long for him who advances slowly and does not hurry, and no attainment is beyond his reach who equips himself with patience to achieve it.” Jean de La Bruyere

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  4. I’m sorry hun. Listen, when I first started to transition I was so totally alone and lost. I never thought I’d find a way to socialize or to find my way around. I’m not sure if you belong to any trans group therapy settings or if you are in therapy but for me, those saved my sanity. There are free places to go to.
    As far as your finances, can I ask…have you tried to find work? If so, what happened?
    Toni Grace

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    1. Thank you Toni, ya I applied to jobs I thought I could do and ones that I couldn’t do as well and I never heard back from any of them and after becoming homeless keeping my phone up so I could get a call or email back became a problem and now I’m stuck in the chetch 22 of just trying to survive day to day and the things I have put online to sell haven’t gone anywhere. ❤️✌️

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      1. Oh hun…sometimes out of our setbacks comes the brightest light we ever imagined . Its obvious you have heart and courage…and those combined with patience are enough. I know its easier said than done…but keep pushing forward.🦋👭🏼

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  5. Ohh sweets, don’t hate your life. I know, & I’m sorry, that you’re going through such a rough time. I know ‘kind words’ & ‘positive energy’ won’t charge your phone or buy you dinner. But, if I may – there is something to be said about how we choose to look at things, at our lives ..
    A wise man once said: ‘If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.’ In my experience, with the Universe, gotta ‘be careful what you wish for.’ It’s been said that ‘what you put out you get back;’ so if we complain, the Universe sends us more to complain about – cuz it’ll match the vibration you’re at. If we say, ‘This is shit, & that is shit,’ the Universe responds by sending you more shit – again matching your vibrational frequency. You won’t be in this situation forever. You WILL get through it. And you will one day look back on this as a distant past memory. One that you will no doubt grow from 😉 For we ARE in Earth School, & we are students of the Universe. But you’re gonna hafta give the Universe a bit of a hand; you are a team. There is Magic in the air, all around us all the time. There is no empty space .. but there is information all around us, it travels through energies, frequencies, n vibrations that are all around us all the time. Shift your perspective, look at the world, your situation, energetically. What do you think the Universe is trying to teach you?
    Cuz it’s trying to teach you something. The way to turn it around is by shifting ‘how you see,’ what you focus on. To have an ‘Attitude of Gratitude.’ You woke up this morning. You are Alive. You are breathing. You have 2 arms. You have 2 legs. You have people here, friends, acquaintances, strangers – who care about you, really care about you & want you to succeed. You are a beautiful Soul, & like the rest of us you’re trying to get thru this incredibly enlightening & sometimes fuckin’ devastating human experience. No one ever said it was gonna be or supposed to be easy. If it was – what do you think we’d be complaining about? “It’s so boring man! Nothing to do! WTF! This sucks! Wish something would happen!” We wouldn’t learn a damn thing.
    If it was all easy peasy, we’d coast thru, staying pretty much the same throughout our lives, just plateauing along ..
    No growth, no Soul expansion, no lessons learned, no levels upped. You have a mission, a purpose; maybe you’re just going thru the hardest growth spurt you’ve yet to encounter. But the Universe is no dummy. It’s Divine. It has faith in you. You can do this Dawn 😉 xoxo

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  6. Reblogged this on Notes and commented:
    Dawn is pulling it through despite this wind blowing against her. She has a strange strength for life which anyone can learn from her and follow during triumphs of their own.

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      1. Then you are definitely discounting yourself as there are many who are actually committing violence, suicides and throwing all sorts of tantrum only because “life happened” to them.

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      2. I’ve learned a thing or two about ” life happened ” after my awakening, I don’t blame anyone for it anymore it’s life , but I do have to admit I have tried suicide a couple of times after my awakening when things got to be to much but I’ve come back from it a little wiser. I like to see myself as a normal person just trying to make it throw life like everyone else but I know that not true I’m different with a hole different set of problem’s on top of my depression and anxiety from what normal people have to deal with and that does take a little extra strength but I don’t normally think about that. ❤️✌️

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      3. Wow… that makes you even stronger (from inside) than I initially thought. You are doing great staying that.

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