It’s been a long time sense my last post because after the last hurricane that hit FL i’v been very busy. I went from working 8hrs to 9hrs a day to 18 – 19hrs a day taking care of the after-math of destruction left be-hind for a couple of people that could care less about me, if they know the real me it would have been very bad for me because they weren’t good people at all, all that i did for them all they could do was find foult with me and what i did. So after years of putting up with there crap i left and not at a good time of the year to be looking for a new job especially when your disabled. I moved in with family that said i could stay for a little while but that time is about over and with little money and no job stole it looks like i will be living on the streets soon but it’s stile better then where i was before.
I’v had a lot of time to think and reflexed on things, my two decades of suicidal depression thought me a lot of things i never could see tell after my awakening, i thought i was looking for something that i couldn’t find the door way to but in actuality the door was right in front of me i just had to learn how to open it. The world as a knew it is now a vastly different place now that i have opened-up my mind, heart and soul, I can see a world full of wonder, amazement and beauty that most will never see. There’s no dowt the world is a cruel, uncaring place that will step on you every chance it gets but that doesn’t mean we have to let it run us down and live are lives in misery. As some one that has gone throw two decades of suicidal depression i learned that self love was the road for me to self happiness thow it’s been a long hard road getting there for the most part im content in life now. Come what may, poverty, homelessness, death, I do not blame the world for this things any more because it’s the inescapable causality of life for someone like me. BY FOR NOW